Speaking of an early a.m. run. 1. I am NOT a morning person, 2. running on pavement is way harder than running on a treadmill. Guess that belt really does help move the foot eh? I felt great on my Mon and Tues runs (on the treadmill), but today was tough. Granted M/T were 'easy' and today was tempo. My legs felt like lead today. I did get bored yesterday and played w/ the elevation on the TM, but come on.. it wasn't anything that drastic. I think it has more to do w/ the getting out of bed and running immediately vs getting up and waking up before running. I remember suffering through early a.m. runs back in Seattle while the evening runs were fine during the same points in training. Too bad most races start in the early a.m.... though I rarely start a race right out of bed like I start a run right out of bed.
This waiting to move thing is really weighing on me right now. I'm so tired of the waiting!!! My house is cluttered and messy (I know I know it's not like it's normally neat, but after the staging it was pretty slimmed down).
And for all of the parents (all 5 of you) that read this do you ever think.. "I'm not sure I was meant to be a parent"? I'm feeling quite inadequate lately. I feel a 'new years resolution' coming on. Most days lately I've felt like I wasn't' cut out for this!
Here are some photos .. I really need to get back to taking more photos. Now the only photos I take are w/ my iPhone.
assuming i'm one of the 5 parents =) YES....I usually feel inadequate. Am I too selfish? Do I not spend enough time playing with her? Do I not spend enough time teaching her things? Am I documenting enough of her childhood for when she's older? Do I feed her right? Does she get enough sleep? Does she get enough exercise? Shouldn't we be doing art projects? Shouldn't I be figuring out how she can help me with this? on and on and on. But then- either in a moment of clarity or to let myself off the hook - I think - if I wasn't a good parent I wouldn't even consider all of this or think about it....right?
ReplyDeleteAnd go go coffee! At least one or two cups a day....I LOVE a cup of coffee after an early morning run - such a reward.
And just be happy you aren't 6 months pregnant trying to get your house on the market and hoping against all odds that you'll find a new one in time before the baby comes =) It will happen - enjoy your time =)
KP.. thank you so much for your honesty. Does make me feel better! House on the market. UGH! I HOPE HOPE HOPE it goes fast so you don't have to try to keep it clean w/ the tornadoes (aka kids/pets) around. Can't wait to see the 'new' place when you find it. Still looking in Issaquah? Pick a good spot... we might try to be your neighbors when we move back!!
ReplyDeleteSo, you probably know what I'm going to say...LOL
ReplyDeleteDRINK THE COFFEE!! If you love it, drink it! YOu are so healthy that you actually NEED some balance. :)
I hate waiting too. I have this weird habbit of always looking ahead. The minute it turns fall, I dream about summer the minute it turns winter, I dream about fall. It's almost like I want to press a fast forward on life again and again. Not sure why.
PS: Tell Karen if she needs help with her house or buying one to contact me. Brian JUST sold a perfect house here in Issaquah this weekend. I wish we could've moved into it.
ReplyDeleteLots of good inventory out there right now!