Monday, December 19, 2011

WANT TO BE MORE!

I want to be better. I want to provide more to you, my readers, to my family and to my friends. I want to go beyond the drivel I put up here in blogger land... and upon reading some old posts ... the belly aching. OH MY GOD!!! I tell my kids not to whine. I think they learned it from me... Holy HELL batman. Strike me dead with lightning I am the CAUSE of the problem. Crap, I digress.... (and start w/ my blathering and whining again.)

I feel like time has gone by and while I'm sure things have changed... they are much the same.

I want to write epic shit, I want to do epic shit, I want to be 100% satisfied with where I am and who I am, but frankly I'm scared. How can I be scared of being the best I can be? Of putting myself out there. Of providing value!?

How? I'll tell you how. I worry that I CAN'T do it. That I can't write epic shit or even do epic shit. That I can't provide value. That I can't break out of the mundane that has become my existence. While I realize the ridiculousness of these statements... surely I provide value... to someone.

What if I put it out there that I want to do these things... I get through a few epic things/thoughts/ideas that I'm actually able to successfully share. That actually motivate and inspire people... and then .....

Crickets!

What if after that the well runs dry..... the blog dies? I die? 

Surely not.
My heart will still beat...

Your heart will still beat...
And I guess I could just go back to writing like I do now.... 

Right? 
So I said it. I put it out there. Next year I hope to BE more... to PROVIDE more...

It's almost 2012 people. ALMOST!

9 comments:

  1. Shoot. Do you realize how much "value" you have provided to me in our recent conversations? You have no idea!!

    You need to give yourself more credit.

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  2. Banana... my value was given through non-blog convo.. and I'm so glad to have given it and connected to you. I guess this blog is making connections that I don't even think about! :)

    Just wait... things that make you go HMMM are coming! :)

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  3. No whining about how much you whine! :-P

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  4. Oh my friend don't sell yourself short. You provide quite a bit to the world.

    My piece of advice on wanting to write epic shit would be write about your passions and don't worry about whether or not anybody reads. You may lose some followers but you will gain others who share the same interests and you will build from there.

    Stay Strong!

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  5. Thanks Jason! :)

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  6. You are the least whiney person I know. Seriously. You don't whine ENOUGH.
    I want to send you a plane ticket to come hang out with me ..... can you drug your kids for a few days? Why not. They'll never remember....
    *wink*

    LOVE YOU!!!

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  7. Maybe if I drug the adults they will let me come see you and I'll just book it out of there before they come to. Tom will be relieved when I return to see that I didn't run off to mexico! :)

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  8. I love your blog. I love that you are real. I love that you have more to offer all of us than you even know. I guess I just love you! :)

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