So looking through my blog archives for something and noticed something. Two posts... almost identically named:
- 2010 wasn't exactly epic
- Was 2011 Awesome?
1. I set myself up for epic failure each year by laying out crazy stupid expectations on myself. Either that or I'm just too hard on myself expecting PERFECTION on each thing I laid out. Yes that is probably it!
2. EVERY year at this time of year I pretty much SUCK! I should just accept that. I should just slow down a bit and be cool with it. Right?
Geez what a debbie downer I am .. it's the holidays girlie... LIGHTEN UP ALREADY!!!
So I'm going to label 2012 the year of craptastic! Should keep the expectations in check, no?
I jest. I won't call it that. I will still expect it to be epic and for me to figure ALL THE WORLDS problems out all by my little ol' self.... but perhaps I'll try to not be so hard on myself when maybe I don't have it ALL figured out! Or I'll just focus on the good of the year. I tried this year! I did deem 2011 awesome... after pointing out all the ways that it was not quite awesome.
My dad made a comment the other day (he wasn't specifically referring to me.... or was he?)
"Man you know how to find the black cloud around every silver lining."
So as you can see I'm in my sweet December month of suckitude (referring to my attitude).... but awareness is the first part of a solution right?
As always... just keepin' it real. It ain't all sunshine and roses up in here!
You may now return to your regularly scheduled Christmas, er holiday, jingles and merry making. I'm going to go see if I can get my head out of my ass so I can enjoy it all too!
Maybe it's my looming birthday? nah... I don't care about age. most days.