Sunday, December 12, 2010

Struggling!


Today I struggled through a 14 mile run. I'm supposed to be entering true marathon training. Thank God I'm base building right now and not working on speed yet. I've been sick (as I know I've mentioned). It's been hanging around for weeks. I noticed while looking at my training log that I was mentioning feeling 'something coming on' over a MONTH ago. Seriously! Then the family got sick while I was still fighting the bug. It came to head and I really felt like garbage and now it's lingering. I'll start to feel like maybe I'm getting my groove back and then I feel crappy again. My energy is 'okay'... mentally I'm shot! This is not boding well for my attempt at a BQ. I know I've got some time, but time is going by quickly. I'm almost 2 months away from race day. I'm going to have to start doing tempo work and I'm worried that I'm not going to be able to bring my A game. Shit I feel like the best I've got right now is my C game. I'm running slower now than I've run in years.

I'm trying really hard not to freak out!

Not only am I feeling weak in my training efforts my normal daily tasks/routine has me feeling overwhelmed. I still feel like I'm just peeking out of the rabbit hole... not quite coming out. I feel socially stunted. This is not like me. I'm a social person, but I'm struggling just to reach out to people in ways that I used to do easily.

None of this is causing us to have a joyful holiday. It's all just like regular day... or not even as good as a regular day. These things happen right. I'm so ready for a break. A day where I can sleep in (which I'll probably never do.. I'm not a good sleeper inner) then just laze around and not worry about the state of my house, the growing laundry pile, the xmas stuff that is looming, what to do w/ the kids during the cold rainy days.... blah blah blah... I'm whining. I know I've got it good. I have a roof over my head, we have expendable income to pursue things we enjoy (ie marathons/triathlons), my kids are fairly good... NORMAL 4 year olds, my husband is loving and understanding. I know I should just be happy to have all these things....

Okay I'm really sounding pathetic now. Just wanted all my bloggy friends to know I'm still here. I'm still checking in on you... I'm just feeling lazy and slow and like a hermit. It will all come together again and I'll be 'normal'... RIGHT!

And I want everyone to know it's not all sunshine and roses, speedy runs and great recovery. We all have our slumps. I'm right smack dab in the middle of one... I'll see you on the other side!

PS. I couldn't really handle anymore echinachea or Vit C.. just so you know I'm hitting all the usuals to try to get the funk out! Maybe I should just start drinking heavily. Surely this funk couldn't exist in that environment right? :D

13 comments:

  1. Ughh!! Hang in there...it's got to get better!

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  2. Sounds like you could use a couple of days of doing nothing. Skip a couple of planned workouts and get caught up on the DVR AND don't discount the drink heavily option!!

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  3. Ugh...I'm so sorry you're going through a funk! If it makes you feel any better, I'm going through the same thing. I am just mentally and physically drained and I'm so ready for my chest cold to be OVER!!! So, needless to say, I can totally relate to how you're feeling!
    I'm freaking out over my marathon too. I know when I start running again (whenever that will be) that it will be slow going, but I can't really afford to do that. Ugh again!!
    I'm sorry I couldn't be any help, but maybe the saying, "Misery loves company" is helpful enough?!

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  4. The best thing to do when you are sick is to take a break. Do ZERO workouts. You will not lose fitness and you will get over your cold. Hope you feel better soon.

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  5. Your body must need this....cliche' maybe but also true.

    You are getting some needed rest so that you can have that great BQ time and awesome Trakkers season.

    This too shall pass and you will come out stronger and better.

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  6. Thanks you guys. I took a 'rest week' last week... but still did some workouts. :) Perhaps some couch time is needed! (I don't do this well... but I'll try).... I'm totally taking a nap tomorrow! :) I do have to teach spin mon and tues... and I'm, uh, supposed to run a lot. Can you tell that it scares the shiz out of me to skip workouts?

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  7. Take it one day at a time. If you need time off, take it. Missing a few runs ever once in awhile is Ok. Your muscles will remember! Good luck! I hate running when sick! Also better to be sick now than close to your marathon!

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  8. I agree with everyone else on here. Take a break. It is sooooo hard to do nothing physically when you are used to pushing yourself almost every single day. You'll feel grumpier than you do even now when you think you are grumpy enough. Your fitness will be fine and it is often the way to quick healing. Keep eating good food and chill for a bit - you'll feel better soon!

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  9. UGH. That sucks. I second what everyone else says. The break might be hard to do mentally, but it might just recharge you. Feel better soon!

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  10. Wow- I totally understand what you're going through right now. I've been in a very similar funk. Try to stay focused on what brings you joy- running, your family...etc. The rest will come together!

    P.S. My trainer recommended Wellness Formula, which I started taking yesterday- I'll let you know how it goes!

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  11. Keelie.. sucks doesn't it!? I've been pounding vit c, echinacea, zinc, soup and tea. PLEASE let this funk leave! PLEASE!

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  12. looks like you need sometime to rest, get well soon..Good luck on your training.

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  13. Thanks everyone for your kind words and advice. :) I lazed around yesterday then taught spin and I feel like my head is a bit clearer!

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